Two Stories

Some stories are meant to be told as they are and some are meant to be adjusted to fit the audience. I'm choosing to share this story the way I told it to fit my audience when it had to be told and below it is the story without adjustments. 

                                                                   First Story

I used to know a girl who didn't like going to school because she didn't see the point. People around her weren't doing anything related to what they learned at school. They didn't mind if she missed school or didn't . They didn't think school was all that important . So up until she was 12 years old she missed a lot of school, had bad grades , fell very behind in reading and then of course didn't want to read because it was too hard, always wondered what she would be  like when she grew up , but didn't really have a vision. Then one day, her family went through a big move to a new place and something clicked. She knew that being in a new place would mean no one would know that she didn't do well in school before or why she didn't care. She decided that this new move in a way was a new start for her. At her new school she had an awesome math teacher who inspired her to want to do her very best to show that she could handle the work because he pushed her to a very tough math class that he just knew she should be in , went with his gut feeling. This made her want to prove to him that she was what he saw in her and she did . She worked hard and earned good grades . All of a sudden she realized, it wasn't just in math , she was doing well in all her subjects because school was all of a sudden important and she was doing it for herself and the more she did it for herself, the more inspired she became. That girl later went on to be in the top 5% of her high school graduating class, to do well in college and to use her education in her career. That girl never regretted the day she chose for school to be about her and to prove to herself that she could do it.

                                                               Second Story

I was a girl who grew up in a home where education was not important because even though both of my parents had completed higher education , they didn't see it as anything important . They always talked about it being a waste of time and whenever I didn't want to go to school, I just got to not go. Homework wasn't important , grades didn't matter, other things mattered to them much more, but that's another story. I fell behind in all my classes , was below grade level in reading and at risk for retention. Then we moved to the United States , the biggest move of my life . I knew no one would know I was that girl who was failing, no one would know I was the girl whose parents let her write her own excuses notes, I was the girl who didn't care. I decided it was time for a new start. I was so incredibly lucky to have an awesome, awesome math teacher in middle school who pushed me to his algebra class because he believed in me and ironically I got to overhear his argument with my counselor and exactly how that went . He believed in me ( Mr. Aafedt) so I believed in me. He believed in me, so I had to prove to him , but most importantly to myself that I was someone who could handle the work, someone who could do well, and I did. I worked hard and I saw results and from then on I never stopped working hard because all of a sudden school mattered because someone believed in me doing well at school, someone whose education paid off, my teacher. So I began to see education as something that mattered . I went on to be in the top 5% of my high school, went to one of the best colleges in this country on a full tuition merit leadership scholarship for my BA and later completed 2 MA degrees . I am a teacher because someone showed me a long time ago that education matters , that choices matter and it happened to be a teacher . A teacher inspired me. A teacher opened a world of possibilities for me .

Teachers matter. Students matter. No matter how big or small our impact can feel some days , there's always that child out there whose teacher made a difference . That's why I tell the other story to my audience when appropriate , my audience being students , the background of the real story is too heavy but the moral is the same- you are responsible for you. You are responsible for your success and it's never too late . Education matters . Choices matter.

Focus Group -Students Living in Multiple Homes

 This is a copy of the power point assignment I completed for my AIG online class. It is designed to help with social needs of students in an AIG classroom. However,  I strongly believe that similar situations can be found across the board in any classroom and students who are effected by this situation can benefit from a focus group
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Breaking Down and Building Up

As many of you know, testing is  a huge part of the way we measure teachers' ability to perform their jobs and students' ability to show what they learned. Being a 4th grade teacher, I am not new to testing and the importance of student performance. Therefore, receiving test results is always nerve wracking. Students at the school where I work took their mid year benchmarks a few weeks ago and I knew how my class did, but it didn't hit me truly until seeing those results printed. I don't know what it is , but somehow everything is more real on paper.

After my kids went to bed, I started preparing for the next school day and I just froze up. I couldn't get past my benchmark scores. My students grew 7.5% in math and 2.8% in Language Arts. I sat there starring at the numbers, feeling numb, feeling at an absolute, complete loss and there it was- I broke down. I just sat there and cried. As a teacher, I know I put 100 and 10 percent into my work. I make sure to get to know my students, plan my lessons, use data. I stay up late at night to make sure I know what I'm teaching. I work hard to meet my students' needs and here it was the dreaded 7.5% in math and 2.8% in Language Arts.

For a while there the thought crossed my mind, maybe this isn't the right profession for me if this is all the impact I made having worked with these kids for half of a school year. I felt heart-broken, I felt at a loss. I didn't sit there and think about the fact that it was computer based test and it took my students over 30 minutes to get on the correct website or the fact that several of them had to restart due to poor connection or the fact that 10 year olds and very long tests don't always go well together. I didn't think of any of this-all I thought was that I failed as a teacher. That night I felt defeated.

The next morning, I got ready for work, made it there, walked into my classroom and I didn't know what to think. Then smiling faces started to pour into my room full of excitement to tell me about their morning, asking what we are doing today, full of stories. And there it was, the realization that should have been there the night before- they are not a test score and neither am I . I know I make a difference because they don't want to be absent even when we have Saturday school due to make up days. I know I make a difference because I see them learn and grow every day. I know I make a difference because I don't just teach math, language arts, science, social studies, and health. I teach how to think, analyze , work with others, make friends, take on difficult situations and conversations, how to properly play basketball or hold a football, when you need a band aid and when you don't and so much more.  I teach so much more than what I see results of based on a test score and I know I teach. I teach with all the resources and skills I have and I teach with all my heart so a benchmark score of what may seem like insignificant growth is not a measurement of my ability to teach and it is not a true measure of what they learned in the past several months in my class.

My test scores broke me down on Thursday and my students built me up on Friday just like I help build them up every day through building home-school partnerships, through teaching with integrity , through making learning fun and no I am not going to lie I will continue working hard to make sure my students perform their best on standardized test. My evaluations matter to me. Their test scores matter to them and to me, but I am not a test score and neither are they and thus a test score can't break who I am and should never define or break who they are.

Sincerely,

A hard working, motivated, inspired teacher.

Diversity

As I close my eyes,
People are what I see.
7 continents, 196 countries,
Over 7 billion people all represent the world around me.

Diversity is our world.
Diversity not a color, not a gender, not a language.
It is acceptance. It is education.
It is again the world around me.

Men, women, boys, girls
Black, white, orange, green , blue
Differences that describe the world around you and me.


Students, parents, teachers, people.
The world all around-diversity.
Blue collar jobs, white collar jobs,
Short, tall, curly hair, straight hair, no hair.
Blue eyes, brown eyes, green eyes.
All I see is the world around me.

Friends, neighbors,
Realists and dreamers.
7 continents, 196 countries,
Over 7 billion people.
Yet all I see is our world around you and me.

Bonding Through Laughter

Most of us are not new to the phrase “laughter is the best medicine”. However, until this school year I have never thought of laughter as a way to bond with my students. I’ve done mad LIBS, engaging activities, had thought provoking conversations. I play with my students during recess. I always try to make sure my students know that I truly care about them, but I’m not someone who is often described as very funny or silly. 

This year, however, has been truly an experience where I teach my students and also learn from them all year long. My class is  a great group of kids with a lot of personalities and they absolutely have to be actively learning, staying engaged one hundred percent of the time to have a positive atmosphere and good discipline. 

This is my first year teaching 4th grade (as it turns out, my absolutely favorite grade to teach!) and between standardized testing, recreating the wheel with curriculum, differentiation, and a million other things that jump out at me throughout the day , so often I feel absolutely exhausted. What I’ve noticed though with this particular group is that when days get long, we struggle as a class to understand a topic, or we just need a break, there is always someone who will make a witty yet silly remark, say a funny joke, or will make a reference to an inside joke that’s related to something silly from that day or maybe a previous week. It always results in a good laugh and lightens the mood. From there, things go smoother. Conversations become easier to have. Focus and energy return. Laughing together; sometimes laughing so hard that we have to take deep breaths to stop, helps us bond, helps my students know I am a part of the class with them and that we are all a community growing, learning, and laughing together. They are quick to tell me jokes during recess, remind me of silly inside jokes based on class skits and other activities. They know exactly what will be funny and it’s not stupid or offensive funny, it’s funny, funny; the kind of funny where you say I am so lucky to be a part of this because this is an awesome group and they really know how to lighten up a situation, but can get back on task and be stronger, smarter, better after taking a much needed break. 

No matter how tired I can be some days, laughter has truly worked wonders in my classroom this year. It is true, every class is different. Dynamics in every class are different, but I am so grateful for the awesome group of kids I have in my class this year because as much as I love teaching them, I love learning from them just as much if not more. 

What helps you bond with your students?


Have you read “ The Book With No Pictures?” If your students and you need a good laugh, this book is perfect. An awesome teacher and someone I see as a mentor in so many ways let me borrow her copy earlier this year because she said it would be perfect for this class after I told her about the dynamics and she was so right. If your class is anything like mine, this book will be a favorite of yours!

What Does it Mean to be Smart?

I'd like to think that I am always learning, always growing as a teacher . Today, I had to admit to myself that I've failed . I've failed my students this year in a way I never thought I would fail them.
While I have been focusing on the academics and preparing my class for standardized testing , I failed to show my students that a test, a reading level, or a score on an assignment doesn't define who they are.
I work hard to promote critical thinking,team work, hands on experiences, and activities . I tell my students daily how proud of them I am and that everyone is working on different things.
For the past few months , I've had an issue with a couple of my students saying they are not smart or acting very surprised when I say they are smart. Today, we were describing character traits ( inner and outer ) of a new student from the book "The Watsons Go to Burmingham." Before going ahead and discussing character traits of the book character, I had a few students volunteer to have their inner and outer qualities described by classmates. When one particular student's inner qualities were described , one of the qualities mentioned was "smart". This student proceeded to tell me that it wasn't true . Later today, after having a conversation on this topic, I asked the same student "what makes you smart?" The response was " knowing multiplication, good grades, and high reading level."
While what the student listed is important in school and I am so glad was recognized as important, it broke my heart to hear this response. So I had all my students take out sticky notes and each one of them replied to the following questions:
What does it mean to be smart? What makes you smart? Students knew that they could write anything and they didn't have to read it out loud to the class. Over 80% of my students listed:
-good grades
-listening to my teacher
-my reading level
-knowing multiplication
-knowing how to divide
-fractions
-because my teacher says I am smart
These responses mortified me and at the same time they were the exact wake up call I needed.
I am currently taking an intro to AIG course at UNCP and I just finished reading about the theory of multiple intelligences; a theory I am familiar with and aware of, but definitely not something I thought I would be teaching to 4th graders, yet in a way, I need to.
Oh boy, did today just make the "wheels " in my brain turn. As a society, we spend so much time telling our young children that they are smart if they pass the EOG, if they are on grade level for reading, if they master their multiplication facts, etc. They can recite their reading levels by heart, and so often say they are not smart when they don't get that perfect grade on a test. As a society, we have become so focused on numbers and multiple choice tests, yet it seems that we have forgotten that life is never a matter of multiple choice.
After reading my students' responses, as a class we had a discussion about various ways one can be smart and my students were so incredibly surprised when I talked about technical skills, artistic and musical abilities, and interpersonal skills. All of a sudden a light bulb lit up and I can only hope that light bulb doesn't fade. It is my hope that all of them went home thinking about what it means to be smart and how being smart can show itself in so many different ways.
Today taught me that while all the testing we do and of course teaching academics is so important, I absolutely cannot take for granted my students' self-esteems or just assume they are confident and know that they are bright and smart no matter what reading levels they are or what they EOG looked like for them last year, or may look like this year or next. Being smart is so much more than a test or a grade. Perceiving yourself as smart is enabling and empowering, recognizing, and validating and I never want to see any of my students or any child for that matter feel not smart.
Therefore, I will continue to ask my students throughout the year "what makes you smart?" and hope to hear more and more creative and thought out responses.
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What are some activities you do to promote self-esteem of your students?
Team building activities?
How do you help your students feel successful through ice breakers, getting to know each other activities, thought provoking activities?
I would love to hear ideas....